This is a video representation of the internalized ableism I’ve started noticing in myself.

In the lower left-hand corner is an outline drawing of me in my wheelchair with a quizzical look on my face.

I’m looking slightly upwards, where a thought bubble is emerging.

Inside that thought bubble are pictures of my past self doing intricate thing like pouring liquids, driving a car, directing a film, going for a swim, and speaking in front of crowds.

These are all activities I’ve stopped doing.

And I know I’ve done that to myself.